by Tamuira Reid
My mother loves the ocean. It sings to her, she says. When we lived in Manteca we didn't have an ocean. The only place you could find water was in the swimming pool.
She says if it's not singing than it's telling her stories. She says she sees faces in the waves. She doesn't know any of them though.
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I was nine when my parents divorced and we moved to Santa Cruz. We played in the white wash for hours, the salt sticking to our legs in sheets. My mother watched from her perch further up the shore. She didn't like to get wet.
“Can you believe it? Two blocks from the beach.”
“It's an apartment, mom. And it's green.”
She danced around the tiny two-bedroom apartment with my little sister on her hip. When she tugged on the mini-blinds, they scrolled up, the kitchen filling with an obnoxious light. Everything was bright in this town; there was light everywhere.
“Come on you guys. It's not that bad. Look – you've got a beach for a front yard, for Christ's sake.”
“I miss my dad.”
Maeghan started to cry. I decided the sound of the ocean scared her. My mother tried to quiet her, gently kissing the top of her head. Everyone was tired. She looked out the window at the U-Haul parked sideways across the front lot. Our old life had been reduced to nothing more than a sofa and some chairs.
